F**KED UP DAY INDEED…

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yes, that’s how i feel right now. and yes, im being serious.

today was just a complete and total mess. everything went wrong. started out with my mom yelling early in the morning. she already has really really high blood pressure, and yet she still wants to get all worked up all the time…sis was supposed to go with her for a medical checkup today while i had to fetch my bro and some of his classmates to pyramid for bowling..it’s an after-school activity thing his school organized..anyways yeah it was all good timing cos i needed to buy some textbooks for college anyway..especially econs in particular, seeing i have a test this thursday! :(

sigh…and surprise surprise…OBVIOUSLY nothing went out the way it was planned…..mom ended up leaving the house alone cos she was angry at us, and she left her handphone at home…got me damn worried cos i was afraid she might not be able to drive back home and i can’t even contact her…worse thing is, i didn’t even have a clue as to which hospital she went to…checked the last number she called from the phone and found out it was the number of some medical centre..so figured she might have gone there…but then again, how are we even supposed to find her there anyway right?…stupid stupid…argh!…called my dad and he said she told him she’s only going to go for the checkup next week..kinda relaxed a little, maybe she went out to buy something instead?..few minutes later, she called home(using the centre’s phone i presume), and told us(my sis and i) to go get my car(she drove my car out and left the one she usually drives at home)..cos i wasn’t  confident of driving that other car :S i think she knew..anyways so i went to find her and my sis ended up accompanying my mom after all…we managed to persuade her phew –_-..

-i bet u think my day got better right?

WRONG..went to pyramid and all blablabla~…nothing went wrong there…YET….stayed to watch my brother and his other classmates bowl(i got really touched watching them try their best) and btw, some of them are seriously good…i mean SERIOUSLY GOOD..they can bowl better than me i bet…i’ll probably get thrashed if i were to play with them hahaha…anyways after bowling, decided to treat my brother to a nice lunch at manhattan fish market :)…still nothing went wrong…after lunch, started to look for my books…went to mph,popular, and the other bookstores there…ALL NOT SELLING THE BOOKS IM SEARCHING FOR………so nvm…decided to drive to OU to search for them…went to OU, checked out mph, don’t have. walked all the freaking way to the other end of the mall to popular, ALSO DON’T HAVE…tried to look for other bookstores in OU, NO MORE…WHAT THE FREAKING HELL?!?!…decided to give up and go home…feeling pretty annoyed already…so tired okay :(…AND THEN….

i came home to find that lucky(my male dog) hasn’t come home…he ran out in the morning cos my dad left the gate open(i think) when he went to work and forgot(?) to close…so i guess my dog ran out…he runs out sometimes…sigh but why of all days today?!…went rounding my neighbourhood, for abt an hour, calling his name, no luck…finally, decided to go one last round to check and something told me to turn left instead of right and my sis n i saw the MBPJ ppl so we quickly asked them and yeah..they said they caught a dog that matches lucky’s description and they sent him to PAWS so yeah, we went to PAWS and sigh…closed…we asked the caretaker if we could just check whether lucky’s inside or not and he said no…like what the hell? just checking only right……..apparently he doesn’t have the key…then what? the guy is locked in there himself is it? what a load of bullshit –_-…but i guess he saw how upset we were, so he told us we can go round back and see through the fences whether lucky’s there or not…so yeah we walked along the walls seeing through the fences but we couldn’t spot lucky anywhere..went all the way to the back and tried calling out his name but still no sight of him…then i heard his whine and i just KNEW that it was lucky…even if i can’t see him anywhere, i KNOW he’s there somewhere…finally went back to the walls and saw him in one of the pound lots…and my tears just started gushing out and the sobs started…he looked so damn pitiful!! he was whining like crazy much and i could tell that he was so scared :(((…he even tried standing on his hind legs so he could reach us but his hind legs are really weak, so he couldn’t, then he tried digging below the wall to get out…omg…the sight of him doing that seriously made me sob out loud…if i could, i would’ve just broke down the stupid wall and get him out…he was all wet and scared :(..

i cried all the way back to my car and finally cooled down..the caretaker said we can come tomorrow to get him back…though it’s supposed to be closed on wednesdays but he said he’ll be there and we can still take him back, so yeah whatever…he said we could right…

BUT NOW…my sis says to take him back on thursday only cos she can’t take him back with me tmrw cos she has to go genting…i understand that she wants him back as well, but she’d planned to go genting with her bf already from quite some time ago, so yeah…she feels guilty…but i really really wanna get lucky back asap :(…what to do……sigh but now…as in RIGHT NOW, that doesn’t even seem to matter anymore…i just heard my mom yelling to my sis telling her not to take lucky back…and she really seems to mean it…she said if we do get it back, he’ll be full of fleas,ticks and worms from mixing with the other stray dogs…SO HOW NOW?!?!?!?! i know she’s prolly right but…I CAN’T JUST LEAVE HIM THERE!!!! but my mom is warning us not to take him back…im afraid of what she might do if we DO bring him back…*p/s: my mom is really scary and she IS capable of doing the most unimaginable of things okay* so HOW NOW?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! OMG…im gonna cry till my eyes go puffy now…sigh…bye.

this is a fucking nightmare…FUCKING NIGHTMARE…