suddenly felt like blogging O.o..lol maybe it’s bacause im listening to a kind of sweet/sad song? currently loving xin tiao by lee hom :)..although i must admit, i don’t understand it..but i googled the lyrics! ahahha and it pretty much those sad, sweet love songs…like most chinese songs are i suppose haha…i’ts gonna be on my piano playing list ;)
whoosh! exams exams..has started…yes, my horror week begins :(…accounts sucked bigtime today…prolly failing that already…left 2 more papers to fail…woohoo…-_-“…i was just thinking, if only we could like type instead of write for sociology paper…that would seriously help like super a lot…imagine having to write nonstop for 3 freaking hours…-_- gonna get sore fingers for sure…lol bah……ihateexams :(
on a happier note, I CAN’T WAIT FOR MY 2 MONTHS BREAK after this week is over and done with! :D…woohoooooooo! though, i think im prolly gonna be busy busy busy…but at least i get to take a break from all the stress of being in college :(…me no likey…</3
got so much planned out, i hope i have enough time to finish up everything hahaha >_< maybe there’s not enough time, but we’ll see how it goes :)
oh im looking for a job…ANY RECOMMENDATIONS?? :( i seriously need to work my ass off and make big money!…can’t wait for november to comeeeeeee :D:D:D:D!!!! i get to see all my dears dears dearsssss :D:D woohoo! it’s gonna be a BLAST!! :D can’t wait! heeee~ xD
and now, we move on to a topic inspired by this song…hahaha emoness…:P nah im not, really…
well, u see, there’s this guy…lol that’s how it always starts eh? ;)…but it’s not meant to be…so yeah, what else can i do? move on~ move move on~…it’s already in the process i guess…heh…friends it shall be :) im not a particularly narrow minded person…im cool with it as long as they’re cool with it :)
so yeah anyway, i think it’s really funny how for many of us, it feels like, the ones u don’t want come to u, but the ones u want, somehow seems like…it’s impossible to reach them…all this weird twists of fate…sometimes i wonder, should we just settle for what we have or can get? but i guess i can’t do that…maybe now’s not the time, but i can very well say now that im not and will not be that kind of girl…it’s not a very nice thing to do…to lead someone on and give them false hopes, thinking “im not gonna lose anything, so why don’t i just give it a try?”…and in the end, u decide there really is and will not be anything there, so u walk away…and leave the other one hurt…so ouch right? :S…don’t think i can do that…maybe it’s because i have done it, so i know not to do it again…but who knows yeah? maybe i might somehow end up doing it again…we can’t predict what’s gonna happen in the future..but let’s hope it will never happen :)…
hmmm now thinking from the other person’s perspective…i guess…it’s never easy for them…when u know someone likes u but u don’t feel the same way…things get awkward and u don’t know what to do…i guess deep down we all know how it’s like…because we’ve pretty much been through it before…and yet, the funny thing is, when we’re the ones liking the ones that don’t like us back, all that knowledge just disappears lol…i mean i can’t say this applies to everyone, but at the very least for me, it does…i mean, it’s there in my head, but somehow u still just wanna try to win his/her attention…what to do right…u like the person what…but then coming back now to the ones that like u but u don’t like them…it must be pretty hard for them too right?…hahaha this is all so confusing…i guess we can apply newton’s third law here : for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction…hahahaha physics wei…pro hahahaha :P
sigh, i guess matters of the heart is something just too complex to fully understand…after all, we can’t read minds, so we can’t know how the other person’s feeling or what he/she is thinking…which brings me to my next dilemma…apparently the “in-thing” in relationships now is that no confession is needed…people just flirt, and go out, and get together eventually…with no confirmation of feelings whatsoever…O.o which is something i don’t really like…i mean…yeah the flirting and all is okay…but…how do u know if there is gonna be anything there? or is he/she just toying around with u?…what if it means something to u, but nothing to the other person?…what if they were just empty flirts to them but they weren’t to u? seriously, what happened to the old days where feelings for someone are given confirmation through confessions? i think i prefer that…i mean, think about it, at least u’ll know it when someone likes u in that sorta way, and u know that if u don’t feel the same way, u can tell him/her about it, and u’ll know how to watch ur actions so as to not lead them on the wrong way and give them false hopes right…well ok, rejections are tough, but hey, at least u know that u’ll have to move on…and like i said, im not the type that believes in the saying “if we can’t be lovers, we can’t be friends” i totally disagree with it…unless of course, it comes to some special conditions like the person is a crazy stalker or something hahaha if that were the case, i guess it’s alright to follow that saying ;)…for safety reasons hahaha…but anyway, yeah, i prefer the old style haha…lesser mind games and a smaller risk of leading someone on, or being led on the wrong way :)…i think everyone hates that right…well i surely do…
sadly for now, it’s all mind games mind games mind games…sigh…it’s like, confessions will just end up making people feel awkward nowadays…come on, be sporting a little won’t you? just because the one u like doesn’t like u back, it’s not the end of the world…yeah, be sad, but move on, and keep the friendship! then again, i guess it take both parties to be sporting enough to keep the friendship going without any awkward situations…
well, don’t get me wrong, there are still very happy couples together now through that new method…but i say i still prefer it back then :)…because to me, it’s important that we know…playing guessing games in matters of the heart is never an easy thing…
lol and suddenly now after typing this out, i feel that it’s gonna be easier to let go of my current crush hahaha…i think there’s someone else…for him, not me lol…hopefully it’ll be my turn to find someone soon :) and to quote my aunt : sometimes, it’s all fated :)
and here’s a picture of a heart…or many hearts…lol u decide…
p/s: gonna be cramming as much sociological facts as i can into my head for my paper on wednesday :( that’s gonna be a handfull...or headfull…O.o lol…bleh…nights! woohoo i updated! hahaaha xD
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